Friday, 24 October 2014

A nice day for a stroll

We decided to take a walk in a local area that I have never really been to. 
The kids have been there a few times when its snowed to go sledging. It's meant to be a beautiful place so we headed out with the kids even though they were protesting that they didn't really want to go anywhere.

"It's fresh air." is all I could say and "People spend far to much time sat indoors and on technology." I had the sudden thought I sounded really old when I said that and I'm sure my girls thought that too.

Anyway with grumpy kids in the car we headed off to enjoy the "fresh air" I had been telling them they needed. On the approach the imp said "I'm not walking all the way up that hill!" that then set the eldest of saying she wasn't going to get out he car. We parked up and I was really looking forward to just some outdoors time. I posted recently here about just stopping and taking time to look at the things around us. I wanted us as a family to enjoy the things we most often take for granted.

With the camera in tow and two not so happy kids we headed off to see what was there. Here are some snaps that I took 

It was such a beautiful day the sun was shining and it was warm, I had over dressed wearing a hoody and a coat. I was fascinated with the sky in this shot, the photo didn't do it justice. There were sheep in the field at the top, the girls raced to see how many there were.

We did encounter some of these along our walk, which the imp loved to climb.

I don't know what it is with my girls but love climbing trees and getting dirty. They would spend hours just exploring, as you can tell the kids were now enjoying the 'fresh air' I had been banging on about.

Even with the grey clouds rolling in it was beautiful to see how high up we were and trying to figure out which direction we lived in from the views around.

We came across this bridge and I couldn't wait to get some shots with the sunlight coming through, this probably isn't the best shot but I like it.

From this point things went down hill when the imp ran to her dad and slipped and fell, bumping her knee and grazing her hand. The eldest was starting to moan so I said we could start heading back and we could grab a drink from the barn.
The walk was a little quicker on the way back as it was downhill, we didn't really want to head home so, out came a ball from the boot of the car and we started to have some fun kicking it around. My eldest asked to use my DSLR to take some pictures of her own and I have to say she didn't do a bad job. 

I took over the camera and grabbed a few shots of them all in the trees I shall call this next photo 

The Three Monkey's 

I think we all had a great time and cant wait to head back and explore some more.

Thursday, 2 October 2014

A Lego obsession

A bit of an obsession within our house.
What is that obsession I hear you ask?????
Its those blooming plastic block that if you stand on them they can make even the most manly man cry.. 

That it your right its LEGO!!

Ever since the Lego Movie came out not only my kids but my hubby has become a little addicted to those blocks. So much so we are running out of space to put them and I was getting tired of it being all over the floor.

We came up with the idea of making some sort of table to use when the kids/hubby wanted to have some fun. I took to Pintrest to see what I could find and I came across the idea of a Lego table. 

We thought this would be a fab idea and away we went. Hubby was rather excited and took to the Internet to find a table that was big enough but also fold able so it could be stored away when it's not being used.

The perfect table was found at Costco our next this was to get the base boards from the Lego shop, lucky enough hubby works near a Lego shop and as he spends so much time in the store he picked up the boards.

Here we are already go!

As you may be able to see from the photo we decided to try and use a glue gun to stick the boards down on to the table... This was a huge fail!! 
 We needed to use something stronger so a trip to B & Q sorted that out and we got some kind of adhesive. (I'm not sure what it was hubby was in charge of that)

There were measurements made... not by me, I'm sure you can guess who was in charge of this project lol. Once we had the pieces in their place we used Lego to keep them all connected and in place.

Here is the table with everything in it's place, being held down by Lego.

After about 3 days and we were happy all the adhesive had dried we took the bits of Lego off and stood with a brew in hand admiring the creation we had made.

The whole family have been enjoying the table and its good to have the bricks off the floor. Hubby has enjoyed it the most I think as he has been busy creating photos for his Instagram account. Here's a picture that he's rather proud of you can check out more of his pictures over on Instagram his username is pie_eater81

I hope you enjoyed our craft post it was a fun thing to make and I'm sure that it will be used a lot.

Sunday, 28 September 2014

Sometimes you just need to sit and be quiet

I took some time just to sit and listen to the world around me last weekend. 

After a busy week at work and dealing with home life and kids the weekend seemed to be whizzing by at such a pace I needed to just stop.

The birds were talking to each other, the wind was blowing the leaves and even the cows were mooing in the field.
The sun was still warm shining through the trees...

For a moment all the worries, stress, sadness were gone.

I felt at peace, like I belonged. 

Sometimes we all need to just sit and not think so much, just take a look at the world around us and not be caught up in the madness of life.

I challenge you to try it, I know I will be doing this again soon. 


Monday, 15 September 2014

Another meltdown

Well for a while we have been experiencing meltdowns with my eldest. But lately I'm getting upset listening to her and the things that are making her upset...

My heart just breaks a little more with each thing she's worrying about. 

Tonight she told me she doesn't know how to deal with the emotions that she's feeling.

We have talked about how her body is changing and hormones can be to blame, we talked about a ways where we don't always end up shouting and screaming at each other.
 She's worried about being a good person and wants to be better person but she doesn't know how. She's worried about being a good role model for her younger sister and also she a worrying about what other people think of her.  

She went on a weekend away with her new school and she was nervous about it on the day she was going (Friday) she said the thought of going was making her feel ill and she was going to miss us. She went to France and a week away with her primary school and was fine.
I held back the tears while trying to tell her that she is an amazing person even thought she has her little breakdowns every now and again I love her with all my heart.
She has dealt with leaving primary school and starting high school so well. I'm so proud of her.
She is so down on herself at the moment and I don't know how to pick her up or even the right words to say to her. 

To me she is still my baby and want to make everything OK for her. But I don't know how other than telling her she's amazing and that I love her. To see her sobbing and how vulnerable she is really makes me sad. 

Sunday, 31 August 2014

A promise to my blog

Dear Blog,

This summer I had it in my head that we would spend a lot of time together, there would be plenty of posts and smiles all round. It was not fault of yours it was all me. 
I didn't make the time to spend with you and I so wanted too, life seemed to get in the way.

I have neglected you for far to long, so I am making this promise to you and everyone can see it now that it is posted here. 

I'm going to spend some time here again hoping that I can get back in the swing of things. Yes it may be hard to find that bit of time now that I'm going back to work and the kids back to school. But I WILL find some time.

I've missed this little corner of the internet that I can call my own.


End of summer

Well the summer has past by so fast this year, it seems to be going faster each year.

This summer we have enjoyed some time away on a family holiday even though I fell ill (that's happened two years in a row now) then the rest of the family dropped one by one with the same bug, even with this we still managed to enjoy out time away.
 We also got to celebrate 2 birthdays with my imp turning 7 and my eldest turning 11 I don't really know where the years have gone, it's scary how fast they grow up.

In the middle of this me and the Mr celebrated our 12th wedding anniversary, we have had our ups and down but I couldn't live without him.

We have managed to do all the school uniform shopping and get it all done without stress still not sure I'm really for my eldest to be starting high school and my imp moving into juniors. 

We are enjoying the last weekend of the holiday which means I'm going to busy sorting uniforms and getting myself ready to head back to work.  

Roll on the early get ups and the manic mornings, I've enjoyed the holidays but I'm ready to get back I to a routine.

Monday, 23 June 2014

Anxiety.. me?

Last weekend I set out on my first trip to the big smoke alone. I dropped the kids at school and then made sure I had everything I needed packed and I headed out the the train station, I got my train and found my seat and I even blogged on the journey.

I arrived at Euston station after travelling  2 1/2hours from up north. I nervously got of the train and followed the way out signs on arriving in the hustle and bustle of the station.
Looking around trying to find where to go next all of a sudden I felt rooted the spot my heart pounding, my body starting to shake, my breathing becoming more frantic.
I  could hear my heart pounding but I couldn't do anything I was just stood there.

I kept telling myself to calm down, I could feel the tears ready to start rolling trying to hold them back I scanned the station looking for the sign to the underground  and slowly made my way to join the people around me who had no idea of the battle that was going on inside me.

Scared of going down those escalators knowing that soon I would be underground with no phone reception, know one to help me. My hands shaking as I looked at the map trying to find where I needed to go. Focus is what I kept saying to myself, you can do it. 

Proud to say that I did manage to get on the right tube even though my was shaking and scared I wasn't on the right one and who would help me if I got lost... Those 3 stops before I had to get off felt like a life time (yes just 3). 
Knowing I was at the right station made me feel better but only once I have exited the tube station did I take a deep breath and let a few tears roll "I did it!", "I did it!" and doing a small happy dance inside.

What I did forget while I was in the big smoke was I would have to make that same journey back.....

It started to build up a few hours before my train was due to leave I even thought about just getting a taxi to Euston and not taking the tube at all but a friend told me I could do it she encouraged me to take the tube I was so nervous already and told her she couldn't leave me but unfortunately she had to take a different line and then all of a sudden I was on my own again, hands shaking, heart pounding for the whole 3 stops. Arriving at Euston and getting back to the hustle and bustle I just needed to sit and calm myself down. I grabbed some food and found some where to sit, my whole body shaking made it difficult for me to eat and in the end I didn't eat much as I felt so sick. 

There was still a whole hour to wait for my train back up north, there were so many people around I stood shaking until the screen showed me what platform I needed to head to. It was a long journey home and well I didn't feel good all the way home. I just wanted it to hurry up so i could be some where I felt safe, I wanted to be home. Even tho I had an awesome weekend.

I have never suffered from anxiety before so all this was a complete shock to me, I think I will look into it a little more.